I’ve been wanting more and more to talk about the complex history of my own racial identity, and Mara Wilson gave me an opportunity to do so when she invited me to tell a story on her monthly show “What Are You Afraid Of?” At first I was going to talk about body image issues (an incredibly important topic as well), but found myself itching to tell this story that I had never actually told publicly. I don’t even share it with many friends. Hopefully there will be more drafts of this story, but in the mean time I invite you to hear about the moment when I was first confronted with the predicament of racial ambiguity and the liminal feeling of not belonging anywhere. I encourage you to share your own story of racial identity as well, no matter how you may identify. If we do not see a space for ourselves in this world, we must speak our truths to create that space.
Special thanks to Mara for inviting me to share on her beautiful show, to Vince Fairchild for recording backup audio, and to my boyfriend Todd who listened to every. draft. of. this. story. and supported me the whole way through. Also for filming it. Also for being the best.
and even if her plane crashes tonight she’ll find some way to disappoint me by not burning in the wreckage or drowning at the bottom of the sea jess, i still taste you thus reserve my right to hate you
When I was first starting the whole process of finding applying to colleges, I was blessed enough to attend one of the best charter schools in the country, with several great teachers and a CAP Advisor that put so much time and effort into helping us figure out what we were going to do with our futures. I know not everyone is so lucky to have access to the same sort of people or resources, so here’s a long masterpost of many useful links and lots of great information you can use. If you ever want advice or to talk about college, feel free to message me!
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